15. When was your last visit to an amusement park?
Too long ago~! More than a year for sure... I don't even remember when my last time at an amusement park was...
16. How old do you hope to get?
Old enough to learn and experience things. I want to be a grandmother someday if possible.
17. What past vacation stems you melancholic when looking back?
Maybe the one time I traveled to the United States. It wasn't a bad experience. Don't get me wrong here, but I could have planned things better. I could have done more, made more of my time there.
That knowledge stems me a little bit "meh" about it.
And the last year we all traveled together as a family when I was 19 years. It wasn't a sad thing in a way, but I knew at that point that it was the end of a chapter in my life.
18. How does a heartbreak feel to you?
Like I can't really breathe. I don't really want to live. Yet at the same time I also get an energy surge and do a lot of things to distract me from my heartbreak (avoiding it).
19. Would you have prefered to have an other name?
No, not really. Miriam is a fine name. Old and timeless at the same time.
20. When did you doubt yourself?
I doubt whenever the symptoms of the movement disorder are at their worst point. There is a lot I'd like to do and they kind of remind me that a lot I would like, doesn't quite work for me in a normal way. I need to find other resources to make it work. But I have no idea where to look or how to grasp them... I mean grasping possibilities is easy if you know where to find them... but where?
21. Does it matter a lot what others say about you?
Umm, it really depends on what they say about me. Is it positive? Negative? Is it something true or a false assumption?
To answer the question. In a way I am curious to what people say about me. Because it gives me an insight of what they see. Maybe I can or can't do something with this information.
22. What is your favourite time of the day?
Possibly the evening and night, I am a nightowl. But I kind of am growing fond of daytime too since while I like the quiet of the late hours... I also like sunlight.
23. Are you good at cooking?
That really depends on what I am making. In general most things I make or experiment on turn out edible so that is a good thing.
24. What season are you most like?
I would say spring. Because I have a lot of growing to do still.
25. When did you last spend a whole day doing nothing?
Some time when I was really too sick to do anything at all. Don't remember the exact day, but it was one of those days. Then there are days where I don't do a lot but still keep myself busy with things like reading or watching things.
26. Have you been a happy child?
Most of the time, yes. Sometimes not so much. It really depended on the situation. Kind of like always.
I was the most happy when I could play without worries or learn things I really wanted to know.
27. Do you buy flowers often?
Not really, I do like the looks of them. Now that I got my own garden I may be planting my own soon... Next springtime?
28. What is your dream?
Oh wow... sit down (if you aren't already). Grab a cup of tea.
My dream... For a part is traveling. I have always wanted to see more of this world. I would also like to travel more by ship if possible, while I like flying too.
My other dream is partly easier and partly complicated. I want to study. Now to learn on my own is partly easy depending on ways. Since one easy way to learn is to have some good books or other forms of study material you can get your hands on (or eyes and ears to see and listen). Still to study like that won't get me some sort of diploma or certificate or any form of proof for the world that says; "Miriam studied this, she knows it." So yes I can study all I want... but lack money for a proper thing
(and I know I'm not the only person in the world in this situation). So well I am partly working on this dream, and yet it won't really get me anywhere for the moment. Then who knows? With some luck? Someday?
I also want to learn some more creative things. So that I can be productive on my own independent.
I want to write more... About all sorts of things. Right now as I am writing it kind of does furfill it for a little part it seems. Although it is just a little moment of the here and now. I mean to get a little bit more productive with writing aswell.
My wish or dream is also to do more for the earth. I love animals and living creatures. I don't like how more and more trees have to make way for agriculture there must be other creative ways. Come on people we are clever we can do this... we just need to work together as good as possible and balance things out for our own future and future generations.
An other (most important!) dream is also that that people learn to hate less and love more. We are all connected on this world in some strange way in some strange web... and not just the world... since in a way the whole universe and all that is in it (what includes us all). I think it would improve a lot of things in positive ways.
(all questions are by Daniëlle Bakhuis for Flow magazine translated and answered by me)
