1000 questions (Part 2)

I didn't really forget, Just wanted to have something more about other things too...

15. When was your last visit to an amusement park?



Too long ago~! More than a year for sure... I don't even remember when my last time at an amusement park was...

16. How old do you hope to get?
Old enough to learn and experience things. I want to be a grandmother someday if possible.

17. What past vacation stems you melancholic when looking back?
Maybe the one time I traveled to the United States. It wasn't a bad experience. Don't get me wrong here, but I could have planned things better. I could have done more, made more of my time there.
That knowledge stems me a little bit "meh" about it.
And the last year we all traveled together as a family when I was 19 years. It wasn't a sad thing in a way, but I knew at that point that it was the end of a chapter in my life.

18. How does a heartbreak feel to you?
 Like I can't really breathe. I don't really want to live. Yet at the same time I also get an energy surge and do a lot of things to distract me from my heartbreak (avoiding it).

19. Would you have prefered to have an other name?

No, not really. Miriam is a fine name. Old and timeless at the same time.

20. When did you doubt yourself?
I doubt whenever the symptoms of the movement disorder are at their worst point. There is a lot I'd like to do and they kind of remind me that a lot I would like, doesn't quite work for me in a normal way. I need to find other resources to make it work. But I have no idea where to look or how to grasp them... I mean grasping possibilities is easy if you know where to find them... but where?

21. Does it matter a lot what others say about you?
Umm, it really depends on what they say about me. Is it positive? Negative? Is it something true or a false assumption?
To answer the question. In a way I am curious to what people say about me. Because it gives me an insight of what they see. Maybe I can or can't do something with this information.

22. What is your favourite time of the day?
Possibly the evening and night, I am a nightowl. But I kind of am growing fond of daytime too since while I like the quiet of the late hours... I also like sunlight.

23. Are you good at cooking?
That really depends on what I am making. In general most things I make or experiment on turn out edible so that is a good thing.

24. What season are you most like?
I would say spring. Because I have a lot of growing to do still.

25. When did you last spend a whole day doing nothing?
Some time when I was really too sick to do anything at all. Don't remember the exact day, but it was one of those days. Then there are days where I don't do a lot but still keep myself busy with things like reading or watching things.

26. Have you been a happy child?
Most of the time, yes. Sometimes not so much. It really depended on the situation. Kind of like always.
I was the most happy when I could play without worries or learn things I really wanted to know.

27. Do you buy flowers often?
Not really, I do like the looks of them. Now that I got my own garden I may be planting my own soon... Next springtime?

28. What is your dream?
Oh wow... sit down (if you aren't already). Grab a cup of tea.
My dream... For a part is traveling. I have always wanted to see more of this world. I would also like to travel more by ship if possible, while I like flying too.
My other dream is partly easier and partly complicated. I want to study. Now to learn on my own is partly easy depending on ways. Since one easy way to learn is to have some good books or other forms of study material you can get your hands on (or eyes and ears to see and listen). Still to study like that won't get me some sort of diploma or certificate or any form of proof for the world that says; "Miriam studied this, she knows it." So yes I can study all I want... but lack money for a proper thing
(and I know I'm not the only person in the world in this situation). So well I am partly working on this dream, and yet it won't really get me anywhere for the moment. Then who knows? With some luck? Someday?
I also want to learn some more creative things. So that I can be productive on my own independent.
I want to write more... About all sorts of things. Right now as I am writing it kind of does furfill it for a little part it seems. Although it is just a little moment of the here and now. I mean to get a little bit more productive with writing aswell.

My wish or dream is also to do more for the earth. I love animals and living creatures. I don't like how more and more trees have to make way for agriculture there must be other creative ways. Come on people we are clever we can do this... we just need to work together as good as possible and balance things out for our own future and future generations.

An other (most important!) dream is also that that people learn to hate less and love more. We are all connected on this world in some strange way in some strange web... and not just the world... since in a way the whole universe and all that is in it (what includes us all). I think it would improve a lot of things in positive ways.

(all questions are by Daniëlle Bakhuis for Flow magazine translated and answered by me)

Months go by so fast, and I am renting a housie now.

They do.
But then you probably notice that yourself. Here am I partly forgetting I actually got a blog to just write about anything that just pops up in my mind. Here you are as my dear reader having a small insight in my mind and some bits of the life I share here.

A lot has happened~!

One big change scares me a little bit. I am renting a little house for the first time in my life.
It is in a way a good change. You see, I am 27 years young. So moving out and working on my own life is... welllll.... it has to happen, right?
It still frightens me. The unknown. But also me wondering if I made the right choice. Renting a place is difficult in my city. Well the affordable kind in my case. I don't have a lot of money thanks to my small-not-to-be-seen-but-I-notice-and-deal-and-fight-with-them-daily handicaps (Oh as for fight with them yeah I do, I still need to see how much of a winner I may be some day. I am curious for that!)
So not a lot of money and then this chance of renting one of the smallest houses, when it is difficult to rent... My fear is mainly that I am stuck to this house now. For the next 11 years or so if I don't get married or life changes in these 11 years. I mention 11 years here because that is kind of the avarage time an adult needs to get chances on a new house in my city.

Now, to view it from the positive side. If I indeed am stuck to 11 years... it is a time range where a lot can happen! Let's hope for good things here aswell. I got my own little tiny space where I can study on my own, get creative... maybe find some solutions on things I may want and can do with my life to manage it in good ways.
An other good thing for now is that while it is small. I live there on my own. Not with a family of 5, who really do need more space than the 36 square meter I got now... and people manage even on smaller spaces. An other plus is that I am nearby my parents house (only a few streets away). So if I need I can store a few books or coats for a season till I exchange them depending on needs.

I have to say... while being a little bit scared of the unknown. I am really curious to see how this adventure in life goes.

About the blog and me

So about the blog. I have chosen the name because it represents something familiar and cosy.
Drinking a nice hot cup of tea upon arriving home or just so because you are thirsty for something with any taste you may prefer...

As for me my all time favourite would be peppermint. Although I surely do like other herbal ones too and sometimes a bit of greentea.

As for Fairytales. I basically have always loved the stories and yes I am aware that while there are mild light versions and stories... many also have a darker side. Still life has as many random aspects as well. Don't worry I am actually not too cruel and while I surely love daydreaming and everything beatiful in the world. I also am down to earth on the important things in life... Or at least I try to be
(In case you as reader disagree).

The browser url maerchentee is basically Märchen Tee. Where Märchen is the German word for fairy and folk tales, and Tee is simply tea.
I like German... I am actually in fact also a German young lady next to being a Dutch young lady. Both cultures and countries are mine, and feel like home. Both languages are my first... Although growing up and living is done in the Netherlands so my Dutch has gotten a little bit better. Still in all I know this part of Europe is my home... Eventhoug I absolutely do dislike the winters up here!

I have decided to write my blog in English because as my second-to-third language (can I call it that?) I feel like I can reach more people all together in the world, and I don't need to choose between my two first languages.

As for really writing a big section about me... I have decided against that. Just read along and get to know me. I am still working on the 1000 questions thing.

One side note before I finish writing for this section. I still have to learn about blogger and I hope to make it look all a bit nicer and more personal. Still this will take a little while. So until then...

~ Miriam (30-6-2015)*

*dates are always dd/(m)m/yyyy

To all number 1 fathers in the world

A little simple doodle made in windows paint by me to go with the article.
I actually used to own a dress like this when I was 5 years young.

So I am a day late in some sort of way. Well that is for some who day fathers day yesterday or even earlier this year... but I am also early for some other countries in the world. So in a way writing this blog post today is perfectly alright.

I kind of was thinking of the subject based on a chat yesterday. A young woman in the United States told that she had baked a cake for fathers day and how her father and grandfather both got tshirts with the text "Number 1 dad~!" So it partly also got a reference for my top doodle up here although I call mine papa because that is usual here in the Netherlands.
A young man replied; "Lies! My father is the best dad in the world."
To which I replied; "I believe all good fathers deserve the title number 1 dad."
And so it is true. Since I do believe that every single person reading this blog post who has a good, loving and caring father (figure) will nod and think to them selfs "Yes my father/papa/daddy/[fill in father figure] is the best father in the world."
I also realise it sadly doesn't apply to all people in the world. Some aren't so lucky as most people with their fathers... or some fathers reading want to be good fathers, but can't because the children live to far away or some silly reason that the ex doesn't allow it eventhough they actually aren't bad fathers. Oh I could go on in all sorts of cathegories and situations since the world population is so big.
It does mean there are many great fathers or (soon) great fathers to be... or the wonderful fathers of the past who have left this world already but left a big cosy feeling of love in the world in the hearts of their loved ones.

Here in my household fathers day was a little bit more simple. Being grown up my mother already tells us a few years, "Well now that you are grown up you kids take care of the gifts by yourselfs." Now don't think we never made doodles and drawings or little craft works for our dear papa like many children do. I just mean our mama (who isn't less wonderful, but this article is for the fathers today) would always buy a little bit of aftershave or a nice soap, some favourite sweets for him along with that.
Well this year I just asked my father well do you have any special wishes? He mentioned wanting a bicycle computer. I am not sure if in English this term is right, but he wanted something where he could see things like how many kilometer he travels on his bicycle rides through the city.
So I found him one on one while shopping. I also looked at reviews and what I read was positive so I hope it will be a good product for him too... since in all honesty I have no clue what sort of bicycle computer is good...
It was the only thing he got yesterday. No cakes no sweets... although is that bad? I don't think so since it's always good to have some random options open to surprise your loved ones with when they least expect it. That doesn't make baking cakes or little special quirks for fathers day less special. So to the people who love to do this; Please keep doing so~! I'm sure it makes all our dear fathers happy, fluffy, and melt on the inside.

How did or do you celebrate fathers day?

1000 questions~! (part 1)

So in the Netherlands (where I live) is a magazine called Flow. I really like to read this magazine for its articles, quirky/mellow style, artwork, creativity... and everything else it is.
In the latest edition there is a little book with 1000 questions you can ask yourself so I thought. Well I want to blog anyway, but don't really feel inspired to write an about me section. (Maybe I'll do in a future?)
So in this section I will respond to the 1000 questions. I have decided to go with 1 or 2 pages, that makes 14 to 28 questions per part. Because a 1000 at once is a little bit overwhelming...
I am not even sure if I can answer them all...

1. Who can you get along with best?
 In my family my sister, parents, cousins. Also some wonderful friends in my life who aren't family.
I wish I could get along with my brothers and nephew a little bit better the older one +nephew lives really far away and the younger one is a little bit closed in his own world. Partly due to autism. I still love them all a lot.
+ Now that I think about it there are more people I'd like to know better...

2. What do you spend too much time on?
 the INTERNET ... need to say more? *hides*

3. Which jokes make you laugh out loud often?
Spontaneous, funny ones. Can't really tell... plus it also depends on my mood.

4. When did you last do something for the first time?
Small things probably daily or weekly in some sort of way? Something big would be 3 years ago already when I traveled to the United States alone. It was the fist time I traveled that far + first time flying in a big airplane (did fly as a passenger in a small 4 person sized one as a child once).

5. Do you cry easily in the presence of others?
 I used to cry so often as a child. I think because the world was too much and overwhelming for me sometimes. I am actually very sensitive.
Still growing up and having less stress lately, taking things a little bit more easy in this period of my life I don't cry often... as for crying with others around I'm sometimes scared that it would be seen as childish or weak.

6. What does your breakfast look like?
Depends on how much time I have and my mood for what I wish to eat that day. So on a good day it is often some sort of flakes or something you mix with milk. I also like porridge. Sometimes I prefer bread with something on it. Sometimes it needs to go fast and then I'm unhealthy with some milk and cookies.

7. Who did you give a kiss last?
Papa on his cheek. Because you're never too old to kiss the cheeks of your parents. Plus he is an awesome father to me.

8. In what do you look like your mother?
In looks and partly also personality a little bit here and there although we're both different in other ways too.

9. What is the first thing you do in the morning?
I think of what to do this day. What has to be done and what can I do... Then breakfast and washing/dressing myself.

10. Are you good at reading aloud?
Umm sometimes? I would say I'm not the best at it, but it works. I prefer to read silently in my mind.

11. Until what age did you believe in Sinterklaas?
Until the year that I was 9 years old. Then I kind of noticed; "oh hey the sweets we get placed in our shoe is the same that papa and mama buy at the supermarket."
I then confronted my mother; "Mama I kind of think you and papa give put the sweets in our shoes and the presents on pakjesavond (giftsevening). Is this true?"
She smiled that smile that she has when something is true but doesn't want to talk about. I was then so annoyed that I told my 6 year old sister that all wasn't true.
I never believed in Santaclaus -the American Sinterklaas (or German Weihnachtsmann) I thought he was just a fake imposter.
12. What would you still like to buy?
If I had the money... A house for myself~! Otherwise something more simple; I really want to buy some fabrics or materials to make a messengerbag for myself.

13. Which personal characteristic would you like to have?
Something that helps me focus and concentrate on more important stuff more... That would be helpful in some ways.

14. What is your favourite television programme?
At this moment; Doctor Who. It has a lot of moments that I could have thought of myself storywise... actually it even has some aspects that I had thought of storywise before already. Like for example the Thomas Thomas thing... When I saw that it was a mix of brilliant and boo I had something like that on my mind too~!

This concludes the first part of 1000 questions to answer.
Originally written by Daniëlle Bakhuis for Flow Magazine / Translated (and answered) by me.

I need to write more

I need to write more an more... I need a blog, one that I stay at and can write about... well everything!

Is this my home journal on the internet?

I kind of hope so...

Let's make this work \(^o^)/